I used to think that as time went by since Karen died the pain, grief and loss would fade away until eventually I was left simply with my memories of her, both happy and sad.
It doesn't seem to quite work that way. It does dull over time but every now and then I'll trip over an emotional landmine - something that detonates an emotional flashback, even if just for a second.
It can be something obvious that I can see coming from a mile away, such as re-watching Brevheart (a film I watched whilst she was ill) or the final episodes Coldfeet where one of the main characters had died.
It can alternatively be something completely unexpected. Today an entry at Stark Reminder caught me. No real reason, it has very little resonance with Karen's death, other than the big C, but still, just for a second, I stood on a landmine.
